raison d’être

2009-12-07T12:16:00.001+08:00

Christmas is coming and I can feel the festive mood already!

Christmas wishlist!

- nice long sleeve shirts (no g2000 pls.. My wadrobe is full of them.. Haha) size 15.

- working bag.

- nice pants. Size 30

- razor mouse.

- zainan computer speakers.

Merry Christmas everyone!

2009-10-26T19:08:00.000+08:00

Departure has been postponed to 3rd Nov.

2009-10-25T23:28:00.002+08:00

Ok. Here's my schedule for my last week in Singapore.

Tues lunch - Godma (:

Tues dinner - Ethel, Cons, Mabel, Justin, Amanda, Matthew at Korean restaurant.

Thurs afternoon - Sam Goh

Friday night - Cell

Sat breakfast- Uncle Wai Tuck

Sat afternoon - Prac (?), Lunch with worship team, YA group, shawn at Kushinbo.

Sat night - Mel's birthday party.

So as you can see I'm a busy busy man. If you wanna have a meal with me, just see which slot I'm free or just chap in one of those sessions (except those solo ones) and just sms me.

2009-10-24T00:32:00.004+08:00

I'll be embarking on an adventure on the 1st of Nov sailing the 7 seas (Mainly South China Sea) and exploring new lands (KOREA)!

Things to do before then :

- Finish watching Boys over flowers. Currently at episode 13.

- Kop as many dramas and movies from friends to store in my laptop.

- Figure out every single function of my digital camera and their uses.

If you FEEL LED to help me on my to do list (See point 2) before I leave, please do drop me a tag and I'll be over at your place with my trusty external HDD in hand.

Well. I'll be sailing on a gas tanker, and the route my ship will take is Singapore -> Indonesia -> Hong Kong -> Japan -> Korea -> Singapore. Multiply that by 2 and tadah! End of 6 months.

So I can kiss my hot Scandinavian girlfriend goodbye. But o wells! A cute Korean chick can be a pretty good second choice. Ahahaha! Keep dreaming eh?

Sense of adventure.. Escapism.. The lines seem blur, but it is true when I say it has always been my dream to sail around the world even as a kid. So I'll definitely enjoy this period of time and think about the next big thing I want to do in life.

Till we meet again. I'll definitely miss you!

Always be happy with Jesus! (:

2009-10-18T00:45:00.002+08:00

Pragmatism prevailed yet again.
When will we ever learn?

Unless the Lord builds the house,
it's builders labor in vain.
Unless the Lord watches over the city,
the watchmen stand guard in vain.
In vain you rise early
and stay up late,
toiling for food to eat -
for He grants sleep to those he loves.

Psalms 127:1-2

2009-09-24T22:02:00.002+08:00

Saw a flash mob video on Constance's blog and I thought it was so cool!

So I thought of posting some really cool ones up too, instead of talking about deary solemn stuff. Haha

Here are the 3 most coolest I've found so far!

[OFFICIAL] Michael Jackson Dance Tribute - STOCKHOLM

The T-Mobile Dance

World biggest Freeze Flash Mob in Paris OFFICIAL VIDEO Long Edit

And also my favourite song right now!
Sex on Fire - Jamie Archer

It was my favourite song 2 years ago, but after this guy sang it in X Factor it has crept back into my heart again! Apparently, the whole of UK agrees with me too, it has topped the UK charts after this awesome rendition of this song. Enjoy!

2009-09-20T22:11:00.002+08:00

'What church do you go to?'

I would think this would be a silly question to ask, but oh do I ask it all too often when meeting with new christian friends. I'll explain why.

Aren't we the body of Christ? I don't think the Bible describes the church as a place, more like a body of people. The church is not a building or a place; it's all of us christians. We are the church.

So don't you think it's silly to ask that question? It'll be like asking, 'So which Singaporean do you go to?' Sounds weird? It probably is.

But with all things said and done, I think we are too steep in the world's system to get out of it. It's like in the Matrix when the bad guy got freed from the matrix, but he opted to return to be imprisoned.

Humans got to have order, systems and organisations. To have a sense of control, to have a false sense of security that we are able to somehow have a say in whatever will happen.

The most powerful thing about the gospel is that it liberates us from the concept that God dwells in any building. For a people steeped in the rites of temple worship this was either great or terrible news. His followers thought it was great. No longer did they have to think of God as cloaked in the recesses of the temple, available only to special people at select times.

Before Stephen was to be stoned to death he said, 'The Most High does not dwell in houses made by human hands.' That's when the Sanhedrins turned on him. It reminded them of Jesus' challenge to destroy the temple and rebuild it in three days. People can get very touchy about their buildings, especially if they think God dwells in them.

Are we like this today? Replace going to the temple with going to church, temple rites with church programmes. How we can do things a certain way, and one will be frowned upon if he does things differently. How we have 'rules and regulations', emphasize church membership, have a board of directors. Seem strangely familiar to how 'church' was done before Jesus came.

What does the church really means to you?

I'll leave this thought with you as I go off to sleep. I'm really tired.
Bye bye.

2009-09-09T23:35:00.001+08:00

I was reading Ecclesiastes and I thought of something funny.

You know how people say, 'I'm running the rat race' and they never seem to get anywhere near the finishing line.

I was wondering what was to be gained from doing such a pointless thing and it dawned upon me, the one thing that people want from this 'rat race'.

Contentment.

They want to be satisfied with what they have, so they run the race to gain more - till they are satisfied.

It's so ironic. Once they set foot and take the first step, they'll never get the prize. Only by getting out of that race, then they'll be winners in their own right.

I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live. That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil - this is the gift of God. Ecclesiastes 3:12-13

Funny isn't it? How almost everyone in the world is running a race they can never win, and yet they still run it anyway. Contentment much like grace, is a gift from God. It's not something to be earned with your own efforts.

So receive that free gift today!
God loves you.

2009-08-16T14:21:00.007+08:00

'You really had no idea what Jesus was like, do you?'

The question hit me like a brick to my head.

My first reflex answer was 'Of course I do, I've repeatedly read all 4 books of the gospel about His life on Earth.' But deep inside I knew, I don't really know Him.

I was to be the plant with no roots, destined to wither when the sun rises. The foolish man who built his house on sand, holding on until the rain and wind destroys the house. Or the weeds amongst the wheat, to be burned in the fire when the harvest time comes.

'What would Jesus do?'

Like people will know what He would do based on 100 over pages of His life in the Bible. I bet the people in His time never ever knew what He was going to do next. Raise people from the dead? Turn water into wine? Feeding 5000 people with 5 loaves of bread and 2 fishes? Needlessly dying on the cross for ALL of our sins?! So seriously, how would one know what Jesus would do in any given situation?

I've been trained from young to follow the world's system. I do all these to maintain a false sense of control. But seriously who am I kidding? Going to church and meeting people's expectations, and manipulating people to meet mine. No wonder I get so tired after going to church. No wonder I reminisce the old days, when there were less people and it was easier to do such things. I'm tired of playing church.

I was thinking of all these things in the Sisterhood of Mary, and it all boils down to one thing.

Love.

John 3:16. For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

The question is do I truly believe it? One can coerce oneself into thinking that he believes it. Jesus in his infinite wisdom knew such a thing could and would definitely happen. It's all over his teachings. The wise and foolish builder. The parable of the sower. The parable of the weeds. The parable of the ten virgins.

A new command I give to you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another. John 13:34-35

One can choose too put his knowledge into action, or to take his knowledge for action.

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing. 1 Cor 13:1-3

The one most important thing I took away from Sisterhood is love. Truly knowing that Jesus really loves me, and to try to love Him back in my own way. Love cannot be taught in Sunday School, or in a sermon. It has to be experienced.

I must admit, I don't have enough faith. Most questions I don't have answers to. And most people whose motives are not yet clear to me. But faith is not the important thing. Don't stone me for it, it came from the mouth of Jesus.

"I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain. 'Move from here to there' and it will move." Matt 17:20

Faith, hope and love. The greatest of these is love.

Faith will grow, hope will be there in times of darkness, but it all begins with love.

Knowing Jesus loves me, loving Him back and loving people as He would want me to in my own special way. That's living the christian life.

I thank God for everything.
I <3 you.

2009-06-22T18:08:00.002+08:00

Gonna leave for Australia tomorrow, coming back on 31st July. Gonna miss everyone!

“The era of procrastination, of half-measures, of soothing and baffling expedients, of delays, is coming to its close. In its place we are entering a period of consequences.”

Sir Winston Churchill
November 12, 1936

2009-06-06T19:30:00.001+08:00

5 Minute Management Course

Lesson 1:
A man is getting into the shower just as his wife is finishing up her
shower, when the doorbell rings. The wife quickly wraps herself in a
towel and runs downstairs. When she opens the door, there stands Bob, the
next-door neighbor.
Before she says a word, Bob says, "I'll give you $800 to drop that
towel." After thinking for a moment, the woman drops her towel and stands
naked in front of Bob After a few seconds, Bob hands her $800 and leaves.

The woman wraps back up in the towel and goes back upstairs. When she
gets to the bathroom, her husband asks, "Who was that?"
"It was Bob the next door neighbor," she replies.
"Great!" the husband says, "did he say anything about the $800 he
owes me?"

Moral of the story :
If you share critical information pertaining to credit and risk with
your shareholders in time, you may be in a position to prevent
avoidable exposure.

******************
Lesson 2:
A priest offered a Nun a lift. She got in and crossed her legs,
forcing her gown to reveal a leg. The priest nearly had an accident. After
controlling the car, he stealthily slid his hand up her leg.

The nun said, "Father, remember Psalm 129?" The priest removed his
hand. But, changing gears, he let his hand slide up her leg again.
The nun once again said, "Father, remember Psalm 129?"
The priest apologized "Sorry sister but the flesh is weak"
Arriving at the convent, the nun sighed heavily and went on her way.
On his arrival at the church, the priest rushed to look up Psalm 129
It said, "Go forth and seek, further up, you will find glory."

Moral of the story:
If you are not well informed in your job, you might miss a great
opportunity.

*****************************
Lesson 3:
A sales rep, an administration clerk, and the manager are walking to
lunch when they find an antique oil lamp. They rub it and a Genie
comes out.
The Genie says, "I'll give each of you just one wish."
"Me first! Me first!" says the admin clerk. "I want to be in the
Bahamas , driving a speedboat, without a care in the world."
Puff! She's gone.

"Me next! Me next!" says the sales rep. "I want to be in Hawaii ,
relaxing on the beach with my personal masseuse, an endless supply of
Pina Coladas and the love of my life."

Puff! He's gone.

"OK, you're up," the Genie says to the manager.
The manager says, "I want those two back in the office after lunch."

Moral of the story:
Always let your boss have the first say.

*****************************
Lesson 4
An eagle was sitting on a tree resting, doing nothing. A small rabbit saw the eagle and asked him,

Can I also sit like you and do nothing?"
The eagle answered: "Sure , why not."
So, the rabbit sat on the ground below the eagle and rested. All of a
sudden, a fox appeared, jumped on the rabbit and ate it.

Moral of the story:
To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very, very high high up.

******************************
Lesson 5:
A turkey was chatting with a bull. "I would love to be able to get to
the top of that tree," sighed the turkey, "but I haven't got the
energy."
"Well, why don't you nibble on some of my droppings?" replied the
bull.
They're packed with nutrients."
The turkey pecked at a lump of dung, and found it actually gave him
enough strength to reach the lowest branch of the tree. The next day,
after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch. Finally
after a fourth night, the turkey was proudly perched at the top of
the tree.
He was promptly spotted by a farmer, who shot him out of the tree.

Moral of the story:

Bullshit might get you to the top, but it won't keep you there.

***********
Lesson 6:
A little bird was flying south for the Winter. It was so cold the
bird froze and fell to the ground into a large field. While he was lying
there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on him.
As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, he began to
realize how warm he was. The dung was actually thawing him out! He
lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy.

A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate.
Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung,
and promptly dug him out and ate him.

Morals of the story:

(1) Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy.
(2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend.
(3) And when you're in deep shit, it's best to keep your mouth shut!

THIS ENDS THE 5-MINUTE MANAGEMENT COURSE

2009-06-05T00:16:00.002+08:00

Today people are consumed by the desire to buy things they don't need, with money they don't have, to impress people they don't like. And most people leave a trail of broken relationships in the pursuit of 'the good life'. I never want to be like this, but I fear that inevitably I will get sucked into a life of chasing money.

Ecclesiastes 5:10
Whoever loves money never has money enough;
whoever loves wealth is never satisfied with his income.
This too is meaningless.

i believe that we are put here in human form to decipher the hieroglyphs of love & suffering. &, there is no degree of love or intensity of feeling that does not bring with it the possibility of a crippling hurt. but, it is a duty to take that risk & love without reserve or defense.

— allen ginsberg

2009-06-02T22:46:00.003+08:00

Came across 2 awesome songs on youtube.

Kurt Nilsen, Espen Lind, Askilholm, Alejandro (4 Norwegian dudes) - Hallelujah

In case you didn't know Kurt Nilsen (Norwegian Idol) was the winner of world idol, owning Kelly Clarkson (American Idol DUH) and all the other idols. Haha. He's the one singing the 3rd verse.

Lena Zavaroni - Going Nowhere

Beauty and perfection beyond words......
Here, Lena gives what is arguably her greatest ever live performance, in a stunningly beautiful version of Neil Sedaka's song, Going Nowhere, recorded when she was just eighteen.

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Considering
so many folks, dissatisfied with everything,
who need someone to understand they're lonely, they're lonely,
and they're not alone.

And everywhere
they shrug their shoulders, tell themselves that they don't care,
and all the while they make believe they're happy, oh they're happy,
but not really.

And they're asked to hold the world together,
make it happen, give it children,
who in turn are turning on to going nowhere.
And all the strength they'd ever need to help them
has been wasted, remains hidden,
in the confusion of going nowhere.

And who am I
to criticize the world that I have grown up in.
Most of you would tell me that I'm crazy, yes I'm crazy,
I can't help it.

I understand
that where you are is where you've been so many years,
and things that tend to change you, tend to hurt you, yes they hurt you,
very deeply.

And still you try to hold the world together,
make it happen, give it children
who in turn are turning on to going nowhere.
And all the strength they'd ever need to help them
has been wasted, remains hidden,
in the confusion of going nowhere,
going nowhere,
going, going, going nowhere,
going nowhere.

- Lyrics by Neil Sedaka

2009-05-11T17:21:00.002+08:00

I read an astonishing article on divorce.

'For the first time in history, households headed by a married couple are a minority in Britain and America. In Singapore, one in 10 marriages ends up in divorce. Men aged between 30 and 49 are most likely to divorce, and in over 60 per cent of cases, it is the woman who initiates proceedings. Curiously, the bride's age at the time of marriage is the most reliable indicator of marital longevity: the older she is, the more likely it is to last.'

Now that's some really screwed up statistics. It wasn't long ago that there was a strong social stigma attached to being divorce, now it is the norm. What happened in the past 20 years?

We have a pretty screwed up society, all our values are screwed up and kids are growing up the wrong way.

Everyone's just so bought in by the idea of consumerism, wanting more and more and causing proverty all over the world. Proverty is not the decrease of one's possession but the increase of one's greed. One can never be satisfied with his material possessions, we must always have MORE BIGGER FASTER stuff.

I was reading a magazine and there was an advertisment pitch for a 103 inch full HD plasma screen TV. 103 inch!! 103 inches = 2.6162 meters!! What the heck. Even my granddad with eyesight problems have no complains with watching programmes on his 24 inch tv. 103 inch tv! What a joke.

We also have an anti-social definition of happiness, which encourages people to cocoon. Why go out when I can play computer games all day? Why hang out with friends when I can be in the office earning more money? Why meet up when we can chat on msn?

We are so fixed on being number one, we fail to see the beautiful things in everyday life. 'We are number one! We are the champions!' But what's wrong with being number 2? Honestly, what's wrong? Not getting an A on your report card, what's wrong with that? Logically speaking, getting a 51 out of 100 marks on your paper means that your competence of the subject is above average isn't that right? Why are people branded as stupid then for getting Cs?

I've no idea how to end this rambling. So I shall post a verse, and go eat dinner.

'Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.' Romans 12:2

2009-05-04T18:27:00.002+08:00

Finally BECK the manga has ended. It was really an awesome read.
I remember back in the days, it was BECK that inspired us (Lionel, Shawn, etc) to pursue music with passion and it has always been an inspiration to me.

I can say if I never came across BECK, I wouldn't be playing drums by now, I would've just gave up or something. Haha

But too bad music can't be heard through read manga, I really would like to hear the ending song that they played in the finale.

"So quiet and mysterious. They're already capturing the hearts of the audience."
"The guitar sounds as if it's crying out. Such a melancholic feeling to it."

Ahhh.. I really want to hear the song. I think the closest I can imagine it to be is this song.

Fricking awesome song. I would like to jam it someday. Hmmm...

The final guitar that Koyuki used was a Fender Mustang with the Addidas sign. I thought it was totally fabricated, like how could a Fender guitar has 3 stripes right? But I was wrong. That's the thing I like about BECK, the instruments used in the manga really exist.

I really want to buy this guitar now. But I think it'll cost a bomb!

A tribute to the manga that influenced my life.

The world would be a sad place without music.

2009-05-01T13:00:00.003+08:00

Browsing youtube again and I found 2 really cool Nobody dance videos!

Inmates from some Philippines prison doing "Nobody".
Really cool mass dance shit. Haha
But the 'Wondergirls' are ermmm... =x

A bunch of school boys doing the dance, and they are good! Haha

And then I got all nostalgic and started searching for Sister Act.
I remember the days of VHS when I'll fast forward the tape to the songs and the rewind it over and over again. Thank God for youtube now. Lol.

Sister Act 1 - Oh Maria

Sister Act 1 - I Will Follow Him
This song still gives me the goosebumps! Awesomeeeeeeeee

Sister Act 2 - Oh Happy Day

Sister Act 2 - Joyful, Joyful

Sister Act 2 - Ain't no Mountain High

2009-04-21T09:45:00.002+08:00

Went to celebrate my mom's birthday yesterday.
Happy Birthday Mom! (:

And on my way back home, I was thinking.

When we were young, it was all so simple.
Right is right, wrong is wrong.
There is no way doing something right can be wrong.
And no way doing something wrong can be right.

But as we grow older, the line distinguishing right from wrong becomes more and more blur.
As long as everyone's doing the same thing it doesn't matter, it has to be right.
And if you are the only doing something, it has to be wrong.
Anything goes as long as you get what you want, as long as you save yourself from trouble.

What you get is a selfish society, where one can not trust others not even his closest friends.
Everyone's doing things with an ulterior motive.
Trust them and you get eaten. Trust them and you get betrayed.
It's a dog eat dog world out there, and doing the right thing is so so hard.

Once in a while you decide to stand up to it all, and do the right thing.
That's when it occurs to you.
What gets you the most repercussions, the most persecution, the most trouble.
Is not when you skive at work, or try to play political games in the office, or even exploiting loopholes in the system.

It is doing the right thing.

And then I got home, and chanced upon this really very inspirational video, I shed a tear watching this. Awesome stuff!

When watching this click on more info on the right, and read the lyrics. Very very sad, especially when sung by Susan Boyle. Awesome awesome stuff.

Can't embed the video, no idea why. So please click on the link below and watch it, may it touch your heart. Never stop chasing your dreams!

Susan Boyle on Britain's Got Talent

2009-04-14T21:49:00.002+08:00

Just watched 28 days later and 28 weeks later on dvd. Freaking scary zombie shit.

And now this!

A russian helicopter is monitoring a fleeing soldier who gets ripped apart by the natives.

Zombies? Or not.
Some weird stuff coming out from chernobyl. Haha

2009-04-12T22:17:00.004+08:00

Went to Uniqlo's new store at tampines 1 yesterday with Justin and Amanda. The stuff there is pretty simple and nice, rather affordable too. Went to youtube to search some uniqlo videos and found 2 pretty cool ones.

This is a Uniqlo TV advertisment for Japan. Nothing special about it, other than the fact that it's freaking 4 minutes long! Crazy. I don't understand what it's trying to say tho, I need somebody who knows some japanese to translate! So what? The guy left the girl cuz she wears wide leg jeans while he prefers slim jeans? Don't understand but the girl's pretty hot!

This is one cool shit video! Melly and Julian will like this. Imba stuff!

UNIQLO MIXPLAY

This is some computer screensaver by Uniqlo to promote their turtleneck pullover, the music was put in by some random dude. I went to the website and checked it out. Super cool, they had auditions for the roles in the video. Can slowly watch them all. Haha.

UNIQLOCK

2009-04-09T02:12:00.004+08:00

I went to search more on the really sick band that covered nobody. They're really good! Royal Pirates FTW!

Rock Hard, & Love Easy.

Britney Spears - Circus (Royal Pirates Cover)

Some korean song cover by Royal Pirates

2009-04-09T01:28:00.003+08:00

Nobody Global Phenomenon!!

Little kids performing Nobody! Very very cute!

Nice smooth version of Nobody, which I think it should have been sung because it's an emo song after all.

Really cool rock version of Nobody!!

2009-04-07T21:37:00.005+08:00

A bunch of videos in this post! Kpop fever!

Funny parody! A bunch of guys recreating a mv by a girl band. Hilarious.

Very cute! 4 year old girl dancing to wonder girls songs. I like wonder girls, actually just one song from them. Haha

Here's a really good black singer who loves kpop. Peculiar huh? But she's really really good!

SNSD - Gee (Pumashock's remix)

Wondergirls - Nobody (Pumashock's remix)

And my favourite song right now!! Super catchy!
i want nobody nobody but chuuu~

Wonder girls - Nobody

Hilarious nobody dance by a GUY!

2009-03-30T22:54:00.004+08:00

I'm back after watching Detroit Metal City.

And all I have to say is........

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! KILLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!! KILLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!! MURDERRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!! F@#*!!!!!!!!!

Kidding.

You really have to watch the show to see why this show has to be the funniest movie in 2009! Cannot stop laughing throughout the show. Hahaha

Apart from the cheesy final showdown, I really enjoyed this movie alot. 4/5 stars!

And the lead actress is very pretty too!! Wooooooo~! Rosa Kato FTW!

2009-03-29T01:03:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I love reading comments on youtube videos. You'll never get closer to human stupidity than this.

beatspaxx (20 minutes ago)
Ummm...she CREATED mainstream

xHaniffax (7 minutes ago)
LOL you dumbass...no one "creates" mainstream. It's the representation of the most common or generally accepted ideas and styles in a society.

Totally bowled me over, reminds me of all the stupid quotes on TV Mobile. I wonder who sends those stupid quotes man, spending like one dollar to see their own dumb 'quotes of wisdom' on TVM. LOL

'No one, who is not in the chaotic currents of life, is without trouble.' - Anon TVM idiot 1.

'Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication.' - Anon TVM idiot 2.

'Two things are infinite: the universe and human stupidity; and I'm not sure about the the universe.' - Albert Einstein.

2009-03-01T21:18:00.004+08:00

Watched slumdog millionaire just now. It's awesome! And Freida Pinto is totally hot! I want to have an indian girlfriend someday, I think they have the prettiest eyes. Haha

Side note: 107 days to ORD! WOOTS!
Although I can't wait to get out of army, I'll still reminisce about happier days in the army. Life as a trainee really is the best. Sigh~

We were soldiers.

2009-02-23T00:23:00.003+08:00

LOVE

You know how it is when you love someone?

And the hard part, the bad part, the what the world?! part is that you never stop loving someone. There's always a piece of them in your heart.

Now that she is gone, she tries to remember only the love. She imagines every blow a kiss, the makeup that inexpertly covers the bruises, the cigarette burn on her thigh - all these things, she decides, were gestures of love.

She wonders what her daughter will do.

She wonders what her daughter will be.

She is holding a cake. It is the cake she was always going to bake for her little one. Maybe they would have it baked together.

They would have sat and eaten it and smiled, all three of them, and the apartment would have slowly filled with laughter and with love.

2009-02-11T22:35:00.002+08:00

Did all these quizes found on justin's blog. Haha. I'm bored!

How highly do you think of yourself? Your Result: High on the outside You look in the mirror and know that looks don't matter and know you are fine just the way you are. However, you are not happy with who you are and no matter what you do, it just never seems right. But don't give up on yourself, there's a great person just waiting to come out!
High on the inside
Too low
Too high
How highly do you think of yourself? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

No I don't! I'm very humble one ok. Haha

What Be Your Nerd Type? Your Result: Musician Doo doo de doo waaaa doo de doo! (<-- That's you playing something.) Everyone appreciates the band/orchestra geeks and the pretty voices. Whether you sing in the choir, participate in a school/local band, or sit at home writing music, you contribute a joy to society that everyone can agree on. Yay! Welcome to actually doing something for poor, pathetic human souls. (Just kidding.)
Gamer/Computer Nerd
Literature Nerd
Social Nerd
Anime Nerd
Science/Math Nerd
Artistic Nerd
Drama Nerd
What Be Your Nerd Type? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Yeah! Musician.. That's so cool.. Haha

what color is your inner spirit? Your Result: Your inner self is green You tend to hide---a lot. You are not exactly very open to many about your feelings, and not nessicarily out of shyness. You tend to be longful and envious of other people's abilities and lives, or you are just very observant and would rather watch than dance to life. The cool thing about you is that when it comes to strategy you are a king, and many times if you open up would probably make a great actor/actress.
Your inner self is yellow
Your inner self is Orange!
Your inner self is Red!
Your inner self is Purple!
Your inner self is brown
Your inner self is Blue
what color is your inner spirit? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Ermm.. Righttttt....

What type of person do you attract? Your Result: You attract geeks! Your stunning intellect and love of sci-fi and video games allures the geeks like nothing else. Maybe it is the sparkle in your eye that makes them want to text you, who knows. Geeks make good partners, but tend to be arguementative. If you are a TRUE geek magnet, you will know if that was spelled correctly, and actually care. If it is a bad-boy/bad-girl you are seeking, you are barking up the wrong tree, unless they are just 'bad' behind a PS2 console.
You attract Yuppies!
You attract unstable people!
You attract artsy people!
You attract models!
You attract rednecks!
What type of person do you attract? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Damn! I don't want to attract geeks! I wanna attract artsy people or models! Hahaha..

Your score on this personality test was 71%

Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural lead, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement you radiate.

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Yeah.. I scored higher than justin on personality. Hah!

2009-02-10T18:36:00.000+08:00

O gone the music!
On an innocent Tuesday
Thy dying calls heard, sudden like summer rain
Crashed o' faithful computer!
All left nothing, its wake left desolation
From indie to pop, country to rock
From elementary till date
are the compilations, a decade
Gone they are with a single power trip
Never shall they be retrieved again

An ode to my compilation of a decade of songs which got lost in a crash. A whole whooping 10gb+ chunk of songs and a whole hard disk of data were gone due to lack of archiving. Unpleasant realization on the importance of archiving. It's a lesson to me and a reminder to you guys to archive your important documents periodically. ):

2009-02-08T00:58:00.003+08:00

Wow. I just realised that this is my 401st post! Imba. Haha.

Today, my good friend Nelson left for Australia to study, and the class of '86 has been reduced to just Nicolas Wong and me. Sad isn't it? What happened to everyone? Melissa Chang, Angela Tang and Samuel Wong left church. Samuel Chan and Nelson Cheong are currently studying in Australia. I don't think I've left out anyone. Have I?

As I look back at happier, innocent and carefree times, I can't help but regret the things which were left undone and words which were left unsaid. What happened to us? Weren't we close friends back then? Could things have been done better to prevent people from leaving our family?

Questions flood my mind, with no answers in sight. I walk by faith, believing is seeing. One day, God will give me the answers I seek whether it be on Earth or in Heaven. I believe it.

What is my life's purpose intended by God? I believe it has nothing to do with what I've intended for myself, absolutely nothing. Is that why I feel so out of place? So burnt out? I think life is meaningless. Without the friends that I have now, I feel I would've broken down a long time ago.

Why Lord have you created us this way? I would very much like being a robot for You, things would be so much easier. But oh wells, all in Your perfect plan huh. I do not understand, but Lord have Your way.

Sometimes I think it's really impossible to be Christ-like. To even have 1% of 'Christ-like'ness would have been really imba for me. The idea of being Christ-like is really too far to grasp for me right now. I am so flawed and sinful, how can I possibly be Christ-like? May the Lord's mercy and grace be upon me.

Jesus's blood washed over our sins, and the victory has been won. He was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed. It just brings me great peace and joy to know that.

Ranting about everything and nothing. It's 0145hrs now, and I'm very very tired. Waiting for the bunch of them to finish their game of DOTA and I'm running out of things to write. As I've pondered all these issues in the past half an hour, may it make you think too. I believe it's good to make enquiry of the Lord, add some much needed focus to life. And the bunch of them are finally done, I will be joining them for a game before hitting the sack.

Ciao~

2009-02-04T22:42:00.001+08:00

I feel at a lost.
I don't know what to do.

):

2009-02-03T21:13:00.003+08:00

If I Ever

If I ever live to be a hundred
Lord would I understand?
How You do the things You do

If I ever fly a jet above the clouds
Would I see You on Your throne?
Looking down with loving eyes

If I ever walk across the swimming pool
Would I have the faith to try?
I should probably take off my shoes

If I ever promise to be good every day
Would You give me a brand new car?
If not… well… I still love You

If I ever were a rock or a tree, or a dog or a cat
I’d sing Your praises every day, because You made me like that
But You made me with a great big brain, and two fancy thumbs
And a heart to follow You, even when I’m acting dumb

It’s just my way to always wonder
And to ponder what You say
But You should know I want to thank You
For making me this way

If I ever live to be a hundred
Lord would I understand?
If not… well… I still love You

2009-02-01T20:40:00.002+08:00

Dumb quotes from the late John Lennon. Legend of The Beatles.

- Cosmetics is a boon to every woman, but a girl`s best beauty aid is still a near-sighted man. (LOL?!)

- [Asked by a reporter if Ringo Starr was the best drummer in the world]: In the world? He`s not even the best drummer in The Beatles! (Lol. Ringo Starr kena owned! Any fans out there?)

- Will all the people in the cheaper seats clap your hands? All the rest of you, if you`ll just rattle your jewelry. [At Royal Variety Performance 4th November 1963]

- Christianity will go. It will vanish and shrink. I needn`t argue about that, I`m right and will be proved right. We`re (the Beatles) more popular than Jesus now. Jesus was all right, but his disciples were thick and ordinary. It`s them twisting it that ruins it for me. I don`t know which will go first, rock and roll or Christianity. (to London`s Evening Standard, 1966)

- (looking back on his "more popular than Jesus" comment) I always remember to thank Jesus for the end of my touring days. (Self-owned!)

- Love means having to say you`re sorry every fifteen minutes.

- Before Elvis there was nothing.

- If everyone demanded peace instead of another television set, then there`d be peace. (This quote is pretty decent.)

- [On the song "Mother"] A lot of people thought it was just about my parents, but it`s about ninety-nine percent of the parents, alive or half-dead. (What happened to the other 1% ?!)

- All we are saying is give peace a chance. (And look where you ended up?)

2009-02-01T19:48:00.008+08:00

What country do I belong to? Your Result: You belong in Italy!!! You are very diffrent and your personality ranges from how you feel sometimes. Every day there is something else to find and variety is a big factor in your life. You like the old, rustic but yet sophisticated look to things. (You mixed up pup, you!) You are friendly and you love the idea of making a new friend just by walking through the door. When you are in love, you like to impress, especially with gifts. Indulging in your senses is wonderful but just make sure you don't do it too much, you might get bored with it and want something new in a short amount of time.
Wastin' away again in Margaritaville....Arrrriba!
You belong in Paris...
Born and Bred in the USA!
G'day, Mates! Austrailia sound like a go?
You belong in Jamaica, mon!
Bonichiwa! Japan is the place for you!
Beauty, eh? Canada has a place for ya, get me?
What country do I belong to? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Interesting. Answer's the same as Ethel. Haha.

'When you are in love, you like to impress, especially with gifts.' I find this part very true. But as I've learnt in the 5 languages of love (Go read the book it's really interesting) not everyone appreciates this way of expressing love. They might value some other expressions of love and thus making you feel that your feelings are not reciprocated.

Bottom line. Opposites attract? Yeah.. Attracts misunderstanding if you don't communicate that is. Hah

2009-01-29T23:45:00.001+08:00

I kena foodpoisoning sial...

Shit so much my ass feels like tearing already.

Not a nice feeling to have definitely.

):

2009-01-27T20:03:00.003+08:00

The life of a boy standing at the crossroads between anger, loneliness, depression and eternal life.

In every way that counted, I was dead. Inside somewhere maybe I was screaming and crying and howling like an animal, but there was another person deep inside, another person who had no access to the face and lips and mouth and head, so on the surface I just shrugged and smiled and kept moving. If I could have physically passed away, just let it all go, like that, without doing anything, stepped out of life as easily as walking through a door, I would have done so. But I was going to sleep at night and wake in the morning, disappointed to be there and resigned to existence.

Sometimes I daydream. Reminiscing on innocent times, wondering what went wrong before I snap back to cold reality.

The me who was screaming was so far inside nobody knew he was even there at all. Even I forgot that he was there, until one day I got into the car - I had to go to the market, I had decided, to bring back some apples - and I went past the store that sold apples and I kept driving, and driving. I was going north and west, because if I went south or east I would run out of roads too soon.

A couple of hours, or so it felt, down the expressway my cellphone started to ring. I wound down the window and threw the cellphone out. I wondered who would find it, whether they would answer the phone and find themselves gifted with my bleak life.

I could not find a radio station that would hold my interest. Eventually I pressed the scan button on the radio and just left it on, left it scanning from channel to channel in a relentless quest for signal, scurrying from pop to classical to sermons to gossip, three seconds a station with plenty of static in between.

Over and over. It washed over me, driving through the day, on the roads. Just driving and driving.

... End of introduction ...

2009-01-27T03:00:00.004+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Being Alone While you may act like you don't care on the outside, on the inside your biggest fear is being alone. You can be quite shy and reserved. You feel like a lot of times people don't really see the real you. You're afraid that no one will really truly love you, and that you will be alone for the rest of your life. On the inside you are great person, so just remember that and don't let your shy nature get the best of you! If you don't want to be a lone then you need to make an effort to be with someone. Show the people that you care about that you really love them, and chances are someone will always be there, even if you think they won't.
Losing Someone
Commitment
Looked down on
Where Your life is Going
Disappointment
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Since I rank equally as high for 'Losing someone' and 'Commitment' here is the description.

Losing Someone

You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!

Commitment

Even though it may not always seem like it, deep down you are afraid of being committed to anything serious. You love the feeling of being carefree and not having anything tying you down. You're afraid that someone or something that may tie you down in life, will keep you from reaching other goals. You may also be afraid of getting hurt. You need to open yourself up more to possibilities and realize that sometimes it's good to be committed to something that you really care about. Just because you're an independent, free-spirited person doesn't mean that being committed to anything is going to change who you are.

Very true this quiz. Interesting.

2009-01-25T22:11:00.003+08:00

'What's your name?'

'Donald' he said. And then, 'But they call me the Runt. What's yours?'

The boy hesitated. 'Dearly,' he said.

'That's a cool name.'

Dearly said 'I used to have another name, but I can't read it anymore.'

They squeezed through a huge iron gateway, rusted part open, part closed, and they were in the little meadow at the bottom of the slope.

'This place is cool,' said the Runt.

There were dozens of stones of all sizes in the small meadow. Tall stones, bigger than either of the boys, and small ones, just the right size for sitting on. There were some broken stones. The Runt knew what sort of a place this was, but it did not scare him.

'Who's buried here?' he asked.

'Mostly okay people,' said Dearly. 'There used to be a village over there. Past those trees. Then they built a railway stop in the next town, and our village sort of dried up and fell in and blew away. There's bushes and trees now, where the town was. Nobody goes in them, except me. And some animals, sometimes. I'm the only kid around here.'

'I figured,' said the Runt.

'Maybe we can go down and play in them,' said Dearly.

'That would be pretty cool,' said the Runt.

It was a perfect early-October night and the full moon dominated the sky. You could see everything.

'Which one of these is yours?' asked the Runt.

Dearly straightened up proudly, and took the Runt by the hand. He pulled him to an overgrown corner of the field. The two boys pushed aside the long grass. The stone was set flat into the ground, and it had dates carved into it from a hundred years before. Much of it was worn away, but beneath the dates it was possible to make out the words

DEARLY DEPARTED
WILL NEVER BE FORG

'Forgotten, I'd wager,' said Dearly.

'Yeah, that's what I'd say too, said the Runt.

2009-01-10T11:59:00.002+08:00

Verse of the day on BibleGateway.com

“[Treasures in Heaven] "Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.”- Matthew 6:19-21

What a timely reminder for myself. I've been really tired the past week, sleeping just about 3-4 hours daily. Working hard to achieve my ambitions and goals, that sometimes I just forget why I want to do this.

I believe wanting to make money is fine, BUT the 'why' must be there, the 'how' doesn't matter. Oh maybe it does, just as long as it isn't unethical, illegal or immoral, haha. If the 'why' is just for personal gain, then I'll say to you 'what a sad life you live'. The sad thing is so many people in this world want to make money for personal gain, they will never achieve what they want because they will always want more.

That's why I've made a list which I won't share with everyone, 'why I want to make money' and put it up on my wall. So that I'll be reminded with what I have to do and not be distracted with worldly desires. It's never about me, it's all about Him.

2009-01-04T23:55:00.002+08:00

A new year a new beginning. Looking forward! Onward Joel!

2009 resolution.

- To grow even more closer to God and His people.
- To read and internalize and apply His word on a regular basis.
- PRAY PRAY PRAY PRAY PRAY PRAY! Make prayer a part of my life.
- Not forgetting to tithe regularly to remind myself where all the money comes from and to thank God.
- Earn enough money to let my dad retire in peace.
- Get a driving license and buy a silver Toyota Vios by the end of the year.
- Be able to buy everyone nice presents this christmas.
- Treat all my best friends (if you think you are my best friend then I guess you are, but touch your heart first =P) to Kushinbo!
- Compile the complete comprehensive guide to the best food places in Singapore.
- Complete the Hogs Breath Challenge with 3 other people.

I think that's about it. In order of importance except for the top 4 which are like equally important to me.

Adult already, gonna start work, must start thinking of letting my parents live a comfortable life and all that. Lord Jesus please let the financial crisis tide over when I join the workforce and be part of THE SYSTEM! =O

2009-01-02T18:54:00.002+08:00

Go to your calendar and find the first entry for each month of 2008. Post the first sentence of it in your journal, and that’s your “Year in Review”.

JAN
I'm back after so long!

FEB
Wishlist.

MAR
Feeling very stressed now.

APR
Just completed 72km. I never thought I could do it till I did it.

MAY
The Gift of Forgetfulness

JUNE
Long time no update!

JULY
Today is such a screwed up day.

AUGUST
I'm going to leave for Thailand for a freaking long time.

SEPT
The last time I blogged, I was on my way to Thailand.

NOV
I was wondering what has army taught me so far, and I've came up with a list.

DEC
I'm in Vietnam now and Marcus Mel and I got owned by the Vietnamese economy.

Got this from amanda and justin's blog. Pretty meaningful. What's yours?

2008-12-30T23:21:00.004+08:00

2008 has been a really bad year for me. The worst year I ever had in my entire life.

Army has been really tough, losing touch with friends, losing touch with God.
All the loose morals being taught in army, I really regret some of the things I've done and picked up. I believe it caused my downfall. People entering army you really have to guard your hearts. I pray for all of you.

Personal relationships has been on a low, commitments in the army meant I've no time for friends. But now I know it's a matter of priority and I committed the mistake of placing other things over people that matter most. 'No time' or 'tired' are just excuses, playing DOTA is just running away from reality. I've hurt people with my non-committal attitude, and immature behavior. And I'm sorry for it.

God has been mostly neglected in my life, I choose to place army over Him. What a joke right? What was I thinking? Now I don't even remember how was it like when I was on fire for Him. I'm just hanging by a bare thread. God save me.

I feel like a hypocrite, smiling every Sunday pretending that nothing's wrong, even involving myself in church activities and events. Trying to busy myself with church commitments, without the love for Jesus. It is just meaningless.

I've even started to think if I were to die now, will I be able to end up in heaven? Or will I burn in hell. I think most probably Jesus will spit me out from His mouth and say 'I never knew him'.

And thus I say, 2008 has been a really bad year for me. I hope 2009 will be better.

My verse for 2009 will be the whole of Psalms 51.

Pray for me and my well-being brothers and sisters, I do not want to end up as yet one of the many people who turn away from God while serving army.

See you when I see you.
Ciao~

2008-12-30T23:20:00.001+08:00

Lift me up dear Lord
Save me from this place
The darkness overcomes me
Some things I can not face

I've been drowning in sorrows
Nothing can make me shine
My faith is growing weaker
Through all these troubled times

Who can save this troubled soul
From the darkness in my life
I need to see the light again
I need a hand to beat this strife

Life has crushed my spirit
With so much turmoil and pain
I've cried a thousand tears today
I pray to Jesus to stop the rain

I know I am unworthy Lord
I wish that things were right
I need your loving kindness
I need Jesus to clear my sight

God can save this troubled soul
from the darkness of the pit
sing your praises to the Lord
Let Jesus guide your path

2008-12-21T20:32:00.002+08:00

A single mom who's working two jobs, and still finds time to take her son to soccer practice, that's a miracle.
A teenager who says no to drugs and yes to an education, that's a miracle.
People want God to do everything for them.
What they don't realize is they have the power if only they open their eyes and believe.
You want to see a miracle? Be the miracle.

Paraphrased from Bruce Almighty.

I think this is a pretty inspiring quote, and for me it kinda links up to the message today that the preacher preached. Commit to the church, cell groups and christian friends and be the miracle in their lives, so that people may find Jesus through us. Amen brothers and sisters!

2008-12-19T01:03:00.001+08:00

I was lost among the wolves, vipers and bears
Till I found myself and the one who really cares
Standing, I was vulnerable to become their prey
It took getting down on my knees to find my way

I was crying from within and none heard me cry
So I hung my head and prayed for mercy on my life
Lord give me strength to battle what may be my doom
Help me overcome the demons that seek me to be entombed

I need and want you to be my salvation, take complete control
To change my life and cleanse it all, my body mind and soul
For I am but a mortal man and temptations shadow the light
Now with you Lord in me I will walk by faith and not by sight

Thank you Jesus for that sacrifice
Thank you Jesus you've paid the price
Glory Hallelujah for I am forgiven
Jesus is my Lord and I will not lose sight

2008-12-16T07:02:00.000+08:00

Long awaited RAVE POST!

I missed raving with you guys. This will be a special memory for me to keep till I grow old and have no more teeth, I'll look back and remember all the imba ravers and how we owned Shake It! Hahaha..

Presenting to you.......
The rave with Shake It!!

2008-12-15T23:06:00.000+08:00

Today we went to the zoo, it was pretty fun.
I'm super tired so I won't talk much.
I'll probably post one super long post on thurs or fri when I have leave. Haha

As for today, I've made a decision and I pray that it is one that is within the will of God. Amen.

Gonna go sleep. Good night peeps!

2008-12-12T15:17:00.000+08:00

These 'How To' videos own man! Super funny. Haha
Gonna post about camp and vietnam soon!

How To Be The Perfect Girlfriend

How To Go On A Date To The Movies

How to moon walk like Michael Jackson

'80s Dances: How To Do The Thriller

And here's something else.
Dragonball movie trailer!
I have a feeling this will be the worst movie in the entire cinema history! This movie is gonna be beyond terrible. LOL

2008-12-11T22:03:00.000+08:00

I'm back from Vietnam!

Gonna post about youth camp and vietnam soon.
Got lots of imba videos and photos.
So wait for it!

2008-12-09T21:28:00.000+08:00

I'm in Vietnam now and Marcus Mel and I got owned by the Vietnamese economy. As of today, we spent like more than two million bucks each and OWE DONNIE MORE THAN A MILLION BUCKS!

OMGWTHBBQ!!!

OWNED OWNED!

We'r gonna beg on the streets of Vietnam.
Matthew's gonna come tomorrow and save ussssssssssssssssssss!!!
If not we'll eat bread every and forsake my favorite Fur Beef Noodles!!
Boohoo......

): ): ):

2008-12-04T23:23:00.003+08:00

This video is the funniest shit ever! I especially like the 2nd part. Haha.

Keep moving forward.

2008-11-23T20:35:00.001+08:00

Katy Perry was born in Santa Barbara, Santa Barbara County, California, USA. The middle child of two pastors, she grew up listening to gospel music and singing in church. She graduated from Dos Pueblos High School in Goleta, California in 2003 and immediately moved to Los Angeles at the age of 18. After Steve Thomas and Jennifer Knapp signed Perry to their label Red Hill Records, she released her first CD Katy Hudson in 2001, a Christian gospel album. In her teenage years, Perry found a Queen album with her friend, and later said, "From then on, they have been my biggest influence".

Bottom line? QUEEN IS THE DEVIL IN DISGUISE!!!
Hahaha.

What's up with song titles like 'you're so gay' and 'I kissed a girl'?? I can't believe people can accept that cuz it's sung by some hot girl. Don't agree?

If you substituted different words in Perry’s tunes, they’d never get airplay at all. 'I Kissed a Black Guy' or 'U'r So Chinese' would not be Top 40. For that matter, a song called 'I Kissed a Boy,' sung by a male, would probably never see the light of day.

PWNED!

2008-11-17T22:20:00.002+08:00

Saw this video on youtube. A parody of Miley Cyrus's 7 things. It's super funny! And I love it! Haha.

This VenetianPrincess girl is pretty cool huh to think up of such a great idea. Heh

And THIS GUY is soooooooooooooooooo imba! Really if you don't feel like watching all the videos, this is the one video you must see!

Another video by the same guy. My favourite version of 'somewhere over the rainbow'.

And while we'r at it I shall post my current favorite song!

I can ride my bike with no handlebars.. No handlebars.. No handlebaaaaaar~~~

2008-11-16T20:54:00.002+08:00

I was wondering what has army taught me so far, and I've came up with a list.

Invaluable skill I've learned in the army

- Act blur live longer.
- Deflecting arrows.
- Shooting arrows.
- 'Smoking' people.
- Cover Ca Chng (CC) in emails.

None of them are very godly skills. No wonder people say the army is a snare from the devil to pull Christians away from God. Haha.

Army commitments = 80% of my life. Church commitments = 15%. R&R (Spent on playing DOTA mostly. LOL) = 5%.

No wonder I get burnt out and depressed. I'm going to stop playing soooooo much DOTA, get alot of rest, and do things which are actually meaningful. I want to be like the old Joel, on fire for God. Not like now, straddled by 'commitments' worrying about the people under me, worrying about my bosses, worrying about events, worrying about money, worrying about friends, thus no time for God?!?!

For it is written : 'Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.' - Matthew 6:34.

I need to stop being a Martha and start being a Mary. You guys can start calling me Mary Mo from now onwards. Hah.

Tho it's really hard to not worry about my army stuff. That's why I say army is a snare from the devil. People say when you enter army, your life belongs to it. 24/7 you are at it's beck and call. You can never commit to anything as you'll never know when you can go home. BUT THAT'S THE LIE OF THE DEVIL. I don't belong to the army. I belong to Jesus! HAH!

Jabez and Alex I'll be praying for u brothers. Don't get too caught up with army until you forget God, like so many of us did. I know u can do it tho, u'r strong, like level 20 Omniknight /w SNY strong. (:

Alright time for me to book in. Bye guys. Till we meet again. I'll leave you guys with a cool quote I found online while 'google'ing beck and call. Hah.

"Christ's love is not at the beck and call of our fluctuating affections." McLaren's Sermons, 1875

2008-10-28T21:04:00.000+08:00

6 Weird (unknown things) About Myself
tagged by serene

1. When I was a kid I kept having really vivid dreams of flying, and I really thought I could fly. The only thing stopping me from killing myself is my fear of heights.

2. When I was a kid, I'll be really fascinated with patterns on the floor. Like if there are white and black tiles, I'll be trying to walk on the black tiles only. I still do this now out of habit sometimes.

3. When I was a kid (YET AGAIN!), I didn't know the meaning of a certain vulgar word. (REALLY! Blame it on poor education, and I'm not going to say what was that word is) I used it often cuz I thought it was pretty cool when people looked at me in a funny way when I say it. Only when I was educated real severely, then did I stop my foolish ways.

4. People think I'm proud, always giving myself self-praise. But I'm really a honest and humble guy. I do that just to entertain everyone. (:

5. Whenever I drink water from a cup, I'll always pour off the last bit of water down the sink for no particular reason.

6. Not really a weird thing, more like something I want to say. I feel pretty weird when I do not have a girlfriend or love interest or whatever, and everyone's associating me with this/that/him/her/shim. It's irritating. Stop it.

10 random songs on your iTunes playlist
tagged by lewis

Title - Artist
1. How Does It Feel - Westlife
2. One More Time - Daft Punk
3. Free - Hillsong and Delirious
4. The Effect On Me - Mint Royale
5. Vampire - Antsy Pants (Juno OST)
6. Foreign Language - Anberlin
7. Everything Back But You - Arvil Lavigne
8. Five Minutes To Midnight - Boys Like Girls
9. Walk To The Water - U2
10.Rehab - Amy Winehouse

Honestly, I don't think 10 random songs out of 2174 songs is going to tell people much about my taste in music. I didn't even know I had 3 of the songs I listed in my iTunes. Hah. How about Top 10 Most Played Songs?

Top 10 Most Played Songs Playlist on iTunes
tagged by myself

1. If I Ain't Got You - Alicia Keys
2. Way I Are - Timbaland
3. Low - Flo Rida Ft. T-Pain
4. How To Save A Life - The Fray
5. Time Has Come - Hillsong United
6. What The World Will Never Take - Hillsong United
7. Pu Gong Yin De Yue Ding - Jay Chou
8. Zui Chang De Dian Yin - Jay Chou
9. Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
10. Your Call - Secondhand Serenade

people that I tag (For all the quizes) :
Everyone who's reading this right now.

2008-10-27T10:33:00.001+08:00

I can't believe I'm saying this but!

I found High School Musical 3 rather entertaining. =x
7 out of 10 stars!

I haven't watched HSM 1 or 2 before, but that didn't stop me from enjoying this really funny show. Alex and me were like laughing when the cast suddenly breaks out in a song. Like WTH?! HAHAHAHA..

But I guess I know why so many people like the show. Hot cast, even the nerds and outcasts are kinda hot. And everyone seems so happy! So happy that they burst out in songs at every single opportunity. Why don't we do that in church huh? That would be sooooooooooooo cool! Haha!

And Olesya Rulin is so hot! Sadly she's doesn't have a big role in the show.

We should be singing this song in church huh. Spread the positive vibes to all the sian people. Haha

2008-10-19T23:01:00.003+08:00

Caught If I were superman at Marina GV and it was a really awesome show!

I give it 8 out of 10 stars. A really meaningful show. The first 30 minutes of the show was light-hearted and funny, but what's a korean show without some serious melodramatic shit huh? But this one is different, there's a nice (warm, fuzzy kind of nice) message that the film tries to get across and it makes me want to give up my seat to the pregnant lady / old people / handicapped people / pretty and hot girls I see.

I wouldn't want to spoil the show for you, so just go watch it! Trust me, my taste in movies very 'chun' one. This is a good movie not to be missed!

Oh, if you want another good reason why you should watch this show, look no further.

Jeon Ji Hyun has got to be the hottest asian alive! The koreans do have a reputation for being 'fake' though, I wonder if she had her face done up or not. Hmmm

I would like to think that she's a natural late bloomer la, if not I would feel rather cheated. Girls you still got chance! :O

PS :: I have yet to do the 6 weird things about myself quiz, and a first 10 random songs on your iTunes playlist quiz. Will make a mental note to do them later.

2008-10-13T22:22:00.002+08:00

I'm going to post 3 of my favorite youtube music videos now.
They are absolutely awesome and I promise you'll love them too!

Bleeding Love - Boyce Avenue

These guys are really good! Check out their other cool covers. This one is my favorite of them all. Heh

Nelly Furtado - Promiscuous

I love this acoustic version. AND NELLY FURTADO IS FRIGGING HOT!

FInally. My favorite of all. By Kevin Michael if you've ever heard of him before. He's really a very good artist! Go check him out.

Btw, the girl in the video's damn pretty! WOW! And the lyrics is really very nice. Reminds me of me and Thailand and everything else.

All I ever wanted was to love you
Girl I never meant to cause you pain
And I only have myself to blame
Now you're gone and I can't stop thinking of you
Every time I hear your name
I think of what I've done again and again

See I'm all alone tonight with just a memory
And baby you're a million miles away
I can't take another day
If I ain't got you, I ain't got anything
It just don't feel the same, no
If I ain't got you, oh
And if I ain't got you, I ain't got anything
Can't even feel the pain
No, if I ain't got you
(You, you, you, you,)

I remember when we were together
I remember how you used to say
There was nothing I could do to turn you away
I know, I know that things have changed forever
When I look into your eyes
All I see now is the tears in your eyes

I'm all alone tonight with just a memory
And baby you're a million miles away
I can't take another day
If I ain't got you, I ain't got anything
It just don't feel the same, no
If I ain't got you, oh
And if I ain't got you, I ain't got anything
Can't even feel the pain
No, if I ain't got you, you

If I could I would pick up the pieces of your broken heart
And put it back together
And I would, I would hold you in my arms until the hurting stops
And stay right here forever

All I ever wanted was to love you
Girl I never meant to cause you pain
And I only have myself to blame

If I ain't got you, I ain't got anything
It just don't feel the same, no
If I ain't got you, oh
And if I ain't got you, I ain't got anything
Can't even feel the pain (I need ya baby, want you baby)
No, if I ain't got you (I Gotta have you baby)
If I ain't got you, I ain't got anything
It just don't feel the same, no (It doesn't feel the same without you)
If I ain't got you, oh
And if I ain't got you, I ain't got anything
Can't even feel the pain
No, if I ain't got you

2008-10-12T21:56:00.000+08:00

Hey.
This weekend has been really good.
Got a tan. NOT Jabez tan btw. LOL!
Bought some really cheap stuff. Tho when all the items add up it isn't cheap anymore.
Basically I'm really pooped out cuz of all the fun I've had the past few days.

I'm going to be in hermit mode now.
NO MONEY AH!
Spend so much already and I just got my pay 3 days ago?!
Omg. Die liao. GG!

Can see I'm really tired.
I'm just typing whatever that comes into my head.
Incoherent sentences. I'm not even like trying to be witty anymore. Haha
Better go sleep.
Good night!

2008-10-08T22:43:00.000+08:00

Hey Serene Siau!
I'm sorry la. It was childish of me to do something like that k. Please don't be angry?
Here are some flowers and a hamster for you so cheer up k! (:

2008-10-08T00:00:00.000+08:00

Since I can't tag on his blog.
I shall do it here.

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY JABEZ!!!!

2008-10-07T21:28:00.000+08:00

You guys have got to check this video out man!
It's mind blowing! Haha.

Anyway I just about heard the lamest and thus the funniest pickup line ever!
It goes like this.

Baby, I'll go all the way with you. All the way to boon lay.

LOL!

2008-10-06T22:16:00.003+08:00

Hey!
I got a new blog skin. Looks cool huh? Yeahhh.

Anyway I just want to clarify that the 'showcase' tab was already included in the template itself. I didn't add that in just to show off what I can do, which isn't really much. <-- LOOK AT ME BEING HUMBLE!

The last time I blogged, I was on my way to Thailand. Oh how time flies. I'm back now and I can't really talk much about my trip due to sensitive military issues. (NOT! I'm just lazy to upload pics that's all) I would like to add that the girls there are pretty cute, but I'll always do a double take just to be sure if they have anything in between if you know what I mean. ;)

The food there taste pretty exotic, exotic enough to move my bowels that is. LOL! Deer meat, wild boar, pig's blood, all sorts of weird food. But the tried and tested tom yam never fails to disappoint. It's crazy spicy!!! But that's how I like it. (:

Good food, nice people, cheap stuff. I wouldn't mind living in Thailand if not for this!

I wouldn't be able to take it if all I do is question the gender of every single girl I walk pass. I'll go crazy! LOL

After coming back, it's been really weird. Like how every morning I would wake up and still think I'm in Thailand. Or how I would spout random Thai phrases to show people how half-thai I am. (Ok I just made that up)
I miss the really nice canteen lanshop auntie, the tranny working at SAI YOK SEAFOOD, the metrosexual uncle (who I bet is still a guy cuz he doesn't have enough money for a sex op) selling drinks at the drink store, the few cute girls working at the canteen who I pity alot. Imagine having to content with the lustful eyes of evil men who try to hit on them every single day.

I guess absence makes the heart grow fonder, even if they were a bunch of really 'special' people. I took pictures with a few of the more normal ones, I have it in my iPod if anyone wanna take a look. I'm lazy to upload.

Alright, enough about Thailand.

Defence of the Ancient. I bet not alot of people know what DOTA truly stand for. People have been going for hero-kills, denying creeps and what not. But the essence of the game, defending the Ancient, I'm afraid it has been lost on many people. That is why we don't get good games anymore. Sigh.

ANYWAY! I've been 'Defence Of The Ancient'ing alot ever since I came back. Not healthy I know, so I'm trying to cut down ALOT! Trust me. Don't believe ask Julian.

I've been going out quite alot nowadays. I've mostly been going out with people I haven't been in contact with for a long long time. It's thrilling to meet a long lost friend. I particularly like the part where I'll be walking to the meeting place, trying to guess how they have changed before meeting them only to find out he/she turned out like this or that. The thrill increases when the amount of time you've been apart is longer. I'm going to try to meet up with the baby next to my cot when I was in KK hospital for the very first time. So memorable. Hmmm

Ok, last item on the agenda.

I particularly not like how the army make us work like dogs and still expect so much more from us. When I first entered BMT as a nub recruit, I aim to be someone of importance and value, a chao recruit can't get you any privileges. So I got into OCS. As an Officer Cadet, I'm the official lowest life-form in the entire defence organisation. That alone can kill anyone's self-worth, but still most of us pressed on.

Now as new 2LTs, we all realised we have been duped. The rank gives us power to get things done, but not enough to make a difference. If anything goes wrong, the finger automatically points to us, the 2LTs, becauseeeee we are the smallest fry in the officer's corp! YAY!

Translate that into dota language, it means I'm a meat shield to tank all the damage for all the other heroes to KS me, and when I die EVEN after they killed all 5 heroes cuz of my valiant sacrifice, they would still call me feeder.

Yeah. Life sucks. What's new?
GG. KTHXBAI.

2008-08-20T23:25:00.000+08:00

I'll be at the airport at around 8pm at T1.
Those who wish to come please message me!
Good bye my friends. See you 6 weeks later.

The Square Root of 3

I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun,
as one point seven three two one.
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

2008-08-17T23:09:00.000+08:00

Hello guys and girls.
I'm going to leave for Thailand for a freaking long time.
Actually only 6 weeks la. Heh
I'm gonna miss everyone k!

Ethel - triple b friend!
Eugenia - Best friend!
Mabel - (Always has been my best friend even tho I don't say it)
Justin, Amanda, Ryan, Auntie Dorris, Uncle Alan - My beloved 'god' family? Don't know the term la.
My youth, serangoon, YA cell group.
And most importantly, YOU! (:

Even though I'm quite mean to some of you. I hope you all know I didn't do it on purpose. I love you all k! I love you. (:

I'll come back safe and sound yeah? And we'll all have fun talking cock and drinking kopi. Or maybe not. Haha. Please pray for me k guys? See you all when I see you. Ciao~

Btw, while looking for that image I came across my finest blog post ever. I remembered it like it was yesterday, the day I almost won the Pulitzer prize. Presenting to you, blog post of the century. (3rd post from the top.)

Keep three things in your heart: Faith, because it can move mountains. Hope, because it keeps you going. And love, because it is the greatest of them all.

2008-07-20T21:23:00.000+08:00

The Dark Knight was the bomb! Joker is sooooooo cool! Everyone should watch the dark knight and be inspired by the joker! Muwahahaha!!

Why so serious?

Ships are safe in a harbor but that's not what ships are made for.

2008-07-15T21:41:00.000+08:00

So many movies I want to watch but haven't got the chance to!

Hancock. Hellboy 2. Red cliff. The dark knight. Kungfu Panda. Iron man. Etc, etc.

Anyone wanna watch with me?
Haha

2008-07-11T14:59:00.001+08:00

What a beautiful sad song. So haunting it draws you in.

2008-07-09T18:08:00.006+08:00

I was just thinking.
I used to be so passionate about so many things. That might be why I'm so multi-talented. Hah. Just kidding.

Walking down memory lane, and realized I've lost many skills I've acquired in the past.
Most don't know, but at one point of time I loved drawing. My textbook would be filled with drawings and stuff like that. I wouldn't say I'm good at it or whatever, but that was a part of me.

Then there was the drums. I totally love music, and especially the way the drum just controls the tightness of the music. I was totally terrible when I first started out. Months passed without improvement, but giving up never crossed my mind. I guess it paid off in the end and I eventually got better at expressing myself on the drums.

Then somewhere along the line, I got really emo. I think it was when I was in poly. And nothing else could help me express my feelings other than writing. I would write in class. Scrapping away the lousy ones and posting the nicer ones on a private blog. Musings of an eccentric mind. That blog provided an avenue for me to release all the pent up emotions in me. It was really a trying time but still I was passionate about writing proses and lyrics then.

Now?

There's army. Can't be passionate about that really. I can't identify with the mission of defending Singapore, I'm not that noble. But army's taking up a huge huge portion of my life. I can't be cruising through these 2 years, wrong, less than one year, achieving nothing. I'll be letting myself down.

So I guess I have to find a goal to look forward to. Something to work towards. That's what life is all about isn't it? To keep moving forward till we bite the dust.

Death would come and you will be rid of my everlasting quack.

2008-07-09T18:08:00.005+08:00

Hey.
I just want to share this song with everyone!
Whenever I feel stressed or sad or whatever, I just listen to this song and it never fails to make me feel better. Heh

Bob Marley - Three Little Birds

Dont worry about a thing,
cause every little thing gonna be all right.
Singin: dont worry about a thing,
cause every little thing gonna be all right!

Rise up this mornin,
Smiled with the risin sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singin sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Sayin, (this is my message to you-ou-ou:)

Singin: dont worry bout a thing,
cause every little thing gonna be all right.
Singin: dont worry (dont worry) bout a thing,
cause every little thing gonna be all right!

Rise up this mornin,
Smiled with the risin sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singin sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Sayin, this is my message to you-ou-ou:

Singin: dont worry about a thing, worry about a thing, oh!
Every little thing gonna be all right. dont worry!
Singin: dont worry about a thing - I wont worry!
cause every little thing gonna be all right.

Singin: dont worry about a thing,
cause every little thing gonna be all right - I wont worry!
Singin: dont worry about a thing,
cause every little thing gonna be all right.
Singin: dont worry about a thing, oh no!
cause every little thing gonna be all right!

No one loves a clown at midnight.

2008-07-05T23:03:00.002+08:00

Today is such a screwed up day.
I felt what it was like to be interrogated and it feels VIOLATING.
Imagine being literally locked up in a small room being monitored, and being asked the same question again and again. Being asked whether you are lying or not again and again for what seemed like hours.
Don't want to go through that again. But most probably I will for some follow-up investigation.
And it's not even my fucking fault.
And when I needed people around, no one was there. Guess I'm just unlucky or something.

Why do people always miss something/someone only when they lose it?
I guess some things are not meant to be huh.
Whatever.

2008-07-01T17:24:00.000+08:00

This is damn cool! Omg!

But too bad they only got to the finals, this scrawny little boy won. Cute.

2008-06-29T18:14:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry it had to end this way.

2008-06-18T19:36:00.002+08:00

\Overdue post. Commissioning Parade. The feeling when you throw the cap is unexplainable. 9 months of shit comes down to this one moment. Then it all starts from square one again.

Taking people under me, being responsible for their well-being, lives (especially after those two poor souls died), training and what not. The thought of having the platoon following me into the battlefield (IF we ever go to war, which is highly unlikely), following my every instruction, and dying if I screwed up. Such a heavy responsibility indeed.

But that aside. Pictures of the commissioning parade!

The unexplainable feeling.

2008-06-07T22:45:00.001+08:00

Finally the day when we've all been training hard for the pass 9 months came!

Got this from Ethel's blog.
'i guess when ya chasing after that one thing so badly, one just misses all the other great stuff in life!'

2008-06-07T20:41:00.000+08:00

Okay everyone!

So I don't have enough tickets for everyone for the commissioning parade.

Let me just warn everyone that there is a risk of getting turned away if you don't have a ticket on that day! however if you're willing to take the risk for me, I salute your courage. hahaha.

Please confirm with me if you're going! And if you do have a ticket, MAKE SURE YOU COME. thanks!

2008-06-03T17:46:00.000+08:00

69/07 COMMISSIONING PARADE

You are cordially invited to witness the Officer Cadets'
Commissioing Parade on Sat, 14 June 2008 at 6.00p.m. at
SAFTI Military Institute

Name of Graduand : Officer Cadet Mo Jiaming Joel

Guests are requested to be seated by 5.15 p.m.
(Seating arrangement will be on a first-come-first-serve basis)

Dress Code : Civilian Smart Casual (no slippers, singlets, shorts, bermudas)

2008-06-01T18:08:00.000+08:00

Long time no update!
Like a real one that is, not some noob few sentence post.

I just came back from lan, and I wonder why do people play lan?
It doesn't qualify as fellowship, all you do is just stare at the screen all day. It numbs your eyes and brain. Sometimes it even makes you shout and scream at your friends! (Strangle and punch for mabel).

Therefore I conclude that lan is evil. We should stop playing lan.

Here are some photos of the R and R in Taiwan!

Departure!

Sorry I can't show any of the TOP SECRET training we did in taiwan. Yeah so on to the R and R!

Playing Maximum tune in taiwan!

Ferris Wheel!

Anything goes in the streets of taiwan, look carefully at the motorcycle!

Only this guy is brave enuff to ask those girls to take a photo with him. Haha. The picture really did the girl on the right a huge injustice! She has eyes the size of MARBLES! Fascinating.

Now there's only one thing to look forward to.

2nd Lieutenant Joel Mo

2008-05-10T12:29:00.000+08:00

The Gift of Forgetfulness

Happiness is nothing more than health and a poor memory - Albert Schweitzer.

Be here now : Live as if you won't remember tomorrow what you did today.
Be carefree : Forget what you think you know and let the world take you by surprise.
Be blessed : Forget what you want but enjoy what you get.
Be popular : Forget to point out that you were right in the first place.
Be memorable : Take for granted that most folks will forget what you said but will always remember how you made them feel.
Be generous : Between friends, forget what must be forgotten.
Be truthful : Don't lie and you won't have to remember a thing.
Be modest : Forget to mention your accomplishments.
Be ready : This is it. The rest is but a memory.

Make the most of what comes and the least of what goes.

2008-04-13T21:44:00.000+08:00

Hey guys!
I'll be going Taiwan liao coming back on the 6th of May!
I'll miss all of you!

Bye bye

2008-04-05T14:39:00.000+08:00

Just completed 72km. I never thought I could do it till I did it.

We walked from macrichie to amk to yio chu kang to yishun to sembawang to woodlands to choa chu kang to kranji back to choa chu kang then to lim chu kang then to some weird beach all the way to the north of singapore then back to choa chu kang again.

Thank God for giving me the strength to complete it. I wouldn't have done it without Him!

And yesterday thanks to Alvin, Marcus, John, Eli and Donnie I got to fulfill my wish of eating Kambing Soup!

Cuz while walking we walked pass a goat farm with a picture of a goat as the signboard. Suddenly I thought of kambing soup! My stomach growled like nuts cuz we didn't eat for 2 days liao. And I thought to myself 'no matter what when I complete this I HAVE TO EAT KAMBING SOUP!!!!!!'

So yeah.. I fulfilled that wish. Haha..

Next week going to taiwan. Dont miss me too much k!
Ciao~

The feelings of those below should not be considered by the ones who stands on top, even if the ones on top understands those feelings. You can do whatever you like and if no one follows you it means you are just not qualified.

2008-03-16T18:00:00.000+08:00

Feeling very stressed now. Lots of stuff going on in the army cuz of the MSK guy. Means more weekend duties to cover. Sian.

Next few weeks also have many major exercises coming. Field camps and such.

And then there's Taiwan. 3 weeks away from home.

Why am I stuck in this mess?
Stupid NS.

2008-03-04T22:18:00.000+08:00

Be there or be square!

2008-03-01T00:56:00.002+08:00

What Joel Mo Jia Ming Means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.

You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.

You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.

You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.

You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.

You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.

You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.

Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

You Should Play the Saxophone

You are charismatic, friendly, and very uninhibited.

You have a lot of personal expression to bring your music.

Improvisational and informal, you can't deal with an instrument that has too many rules or complexities.

You are much more interested in creating unique solos than immersing yourself in music theory.

You have a lot of style, and you definitely are one smooth operator.

And while you may not play perfectly, no one's going to accuse you of being boring.

Your dominant personality characteristic: being very outgoing

Your secondary personality characteristic: your flair for the unique and dramatic

What Musical Instrument Should You Play?

If I Ain't Got You - Alicia Keys

Beautiful song. Very beautiful.

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

Some people search for a fountain
that Promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love to them

hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share,
with no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you,you,you

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

If I ain't got you with me baby
Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

2008-02-10T00:46:00.000+08:00

Wishlist. (to remind myself to stop procrastinating and start planning on buying OR someone really generous wanna buy for me? Heh)

- Laptop
- External harddrive
- Handphone

Long term goals

- 20" hdtv
- PS3

2008-02-08T23:30:00.001+08:00

THIS IS A TRUE STORY. READ TO BELIEVE.

On September 20, 2006, a young girl received a Chain Message on her facebook wall from a friend. The message said that if she did not pass it on to 25 other friends, she would have bad luck for the next 10 years. It also said that her boyfriend would dump her, she would fail all of her classes, she would get bad karma, she would never have a good love life, and, worst of all, she would definitely be murdered in her bed by the Chain Message Killer that very night. Unfortunately, this poor girl, for an unknown reason, thought that she was above the Chain Message God, and not only did she never send the message on to her friends, she DELETED THE MESSAGE OFF HER WALL. Gasp. That same night, she slept in her bed. Nothing happened to her. The End.

Honestly...We don't like your spam. KTHXBYE.

2008-01-26T01:21:00.000+08:00

I found this really cool band on youtube. And guess what?!
It's a thai band! Omg.. So cool! Haha..
Just suspend your judgments till you actually hear them.
Music transcends the boundaries of words and language.
Feel it and be moved.
(Just forgive the thais for making crappy music videos. Haha)

2008-01-11T15:01:00.000+08:00

I'm back after so long!
I've been warned by 'The Company' not to post any information on where I've been to or what I've done.
You know, the usual spies and stuff.
Wouldn't want the 'Red Force' to know what we are up to eh?
That's probably why I haven't been blogging at all. Anything worth blogging is classified J200.
Only those IQ of 200 and above are allowed access.

Anyway!
I'm totally in love with the song umbrella now, and all the cool wacky covers out that in the net.
Check out all the vids. They are really cool la.

Boyce Avenue cover

Mandy Moore cover

Vanilla Sky cover
This one is super duper funny! Must watch! (Justin would really love this one, makes him horny)

Maria Digby cover
This one is my favourite! Maria Digby's damn good la and chio to boot.
Go search Maria Digby's youtube account and listen to all her ownage songs!

2007-11-06T23:29:00.000+08:00

Hello Everyone.

I'm Serene, and I'm borrowing Melissa's blog because I took off my blog and Im too lazy to put it back on.

Im writing this in response to a certain emo, who said: wadeva serene stop being such a fake la

I've never been genuinely pissed, and usually I'll let immature stuff like this go, since its such a waste of time. However, this time its time to let you know that I do not like getting slammed for no reason, Im sick and tired of it, and I think you're cowardly for not wanting to put down your name.

Firstly, I have no idea why you're calling me a fake, since Im 100% percent genuine, and if you dont know it, im a LIVING BREATHING PERSON. I am not made of plastic, and I have substance. Also, even if you're referring to fake as in hypocritical, then arent you being a hypocrite too, acting like you're fine with me but actually you have issues against me?

If you're unhappy with me, why not tell me straight. I dont bite, I have braces.

Secondly, why would I bother being a fake? Dont you think its tiring since you know how its like to be fake? I dont know if you're referring to the stuff I posted on ethel's blog, which was entirely written in effort to cheer her up, because I treasure my friends, unlike you, who is probably emo because you have no friends, which means you have no life. I dont even know if you have reason to say what you did.

And at least I show I care, unlike you who stood by doing nothing and stand at the side criticizing others.

What I say and what I do is entirely up to me to decide, and Im entitled to my own space to do whatever I wish to.

I have a strong urge to slam your own principles and slam you as a person, because I think you're such a ~~loser~~coward for not coming up to me and telling me straight in the face, dont you think its unfair to slam me like that for no reason? But since its gonna be very ugly(trust me) if i do that, I shall not do so.

If you want to prove me otherwise, that you have reason for saying what you did, and you want me to change my opinion (and alot more others') opinion about your cowardice, then I dare you to come up to me and tell me straight in the face what I've done wrong. I wont even expect an apology, I'm that nice. In fact, I'll gladly apologize to you.

Also, I'll assume you are from WRPF, since you know both ethel and me. As such, I shall assume that you're a christian. Fyi, WRPF is a family in christ. We are one big family. And if we are truly Christ's body, and you think there is an issue about me being a hypocrite( The bible says God detests hypocrites), I believe we are taught to tell your brother with love about what you think he is doing wrong. I dont remember reading anywhere in the bible that you should slam that person about his hypocrisy publicly on a tagboard and leave your name as emo.

Also, if you are really that bothered about my fakeness, please tell me how to change.

Alright, my anger has subsided. And I forgive you, but you should still tell me who you are, I promise to be nice about it.

I hope you dont take it too negatively, like how Im not really taking your words too negatively. Also, i suggest you see a counsellor since you're so emo, maybe you'll stop seeing everything in such a negative light.

Have a great day.

2007-10-28T02:01:00.000+08:00

2007-10-20T23:06:00.000+08:00

The day most of my ocs mate dread. 17th dec.
We have to bring a date into the really out-of-the-way ocs camp for some social night.
The catch is... If you don't bring anyone it'll be 7 extras for you! Yipee!
For non-army people, a nice comparison would be this.
If u don't bring a date for your prom, then u'll repeat o levels again.

2 words for this.

Suck thumb. Lol

2007-10-14T00:30:00.000+08:00

Peter pan isn't a kids cartoon.
It's an adult fantasy where people don't grow up.
I find myself stuck in a web of responsibilities suffocating and struggling to be free.
Will I continue to labour on till the day I die?
I don't know.
All I know is life goes on.

Army taught me to 'suck thumb' whenever things don't go your way.
I refuse to believe it. There's always another way out. You just gotta keep finding.

Why did I just said that? Don't I already know the answer? The way out?
But knowing and doing are two very different things.
It's so hard to look upward to seek Him, when problems just crash down on you.
What am I suppose to do when I see my peers all struggling to survive in the brutal and unforgiving world that is OCS.
What am I to do?

To give up? Or to strive on.
I am reminded of how the butterfly has to struggle to get out of the cocoon before it can fly.
How long will it be before I can truly be free?
Only God knows.

Till then I will struggle on with a smile on my face.
Give thanks for what little I have, and for life itself.
And continue on with the knowledge that I have a God, parents and close friends that will stick with me no matter what.

To lead to excel and to overcome. That is the OCS motto.

2007-09-23T01:09:00.000+08:00

Watched Secret on crunchyroll and I thought it was fabulous!
Go watch it if you can. Jay Chou's really talented, directed produced and acted in the show. Heck he even did the whole soundtrack of the show. Wth man. Haha

Anyway I'm going OCS tomorrow! And I won't be back till 3 weeks later. Bah.. I'll miss you all! Hope I don't die there or something. Heh

2007-09-21T12:40:00.000+08:00

Hello guys and gals!
Long time no update..
Anyway I got posted toooooooooooooooooo.....................

OCS!

Like oh my gosh! I so totally knew I would get in la.. Ever since like years ago.. Don't believe can ask sharon lee or sam leo.. Haha..

But damn sian.. Gotta do more route marches and field camps and dig more trenches.. *Dread!

I hate route march. It's the single most retard thing I've ever done. March around with a fieldpack on your back, for like 24km? Which isn't even like from Singapore to KL or even Jurong to Pasir Ris? It's dumb la.. Seriously.

Well, I'll be going ocs to do more of those so yippey for me! -_-

2007-08-17T16:59:00.000+08:00

Finally back from army!

I just wanna say I think felicia chin is damn hot.
And I can't find the wallpaper of her in the army uniform! Boohoo..
Haha.. Anyone got? =P

2007-08-08T22:14:00.000+08:00

I got silver for IPPT!

sit up : 40 - 5 points
pullups : 12 - 5 points
shuttle run : 9.7 - 5 points
standing broad jump : 230 - 3 points
2.4km : 11.08 - 3 points

I just need to buck up my sbj and 2.4 to get gold! But I don't think I can do it for 2.4, it's like impossible la. Nvm we'll wait and see. Next IPPT will be in a week or 2's time i think. Heh

2007-08-04T21:17:00.000+08:00

I just came back from field camp!! And it was the most horrible thing that can happen to any army guy I tell u..

Sleeping in the mud, proning in the mud, digging shellscrape in the mud.. And lots of other stuff which is just torture mentally and physically.. So everyone's looking forward to this weekend cuz we don't get to book out the following weekend cuz of SIT test..

Ahhh... But no one understands how precious time out in civilization is important to an army guy.. So I try my best to squeeze everything I can into the little time I have.. I went to cell right after i booked out.

And today I met up with my poly friend for lunch. Her 21th party is tomorrow and I can't attend it cuz I've to go church.. And then I had to go army market to stock up for my SIT test.. And by the time I reached the indoor stadium for FOP the queue was super duper long.. Don't believe u can ask alvin, he was with me.. Man... We waited and waited for a little more than an hour and guess what? The usher just said we had to leave because the stadium is maxed out..

So demoralised! But at least there's alvin and rachel with me.. So at least the 3 of us can be sad together.. Heh...

If there are people who doubt my love and respect for God.. Then I just want to say that is your own judgement to make.. I'm just gonna make my stand and say I've tried my best and I've fallen short. If I made anyone angry then I'm sorry.

2007-07-13T21:17:00.000+08:00

I'm finally back to blog! Past 2 weeks haven't even got the chance to turn on my computer.. Simply too busy!

Army's ok.. Nothing much to talk about.. Just doing stuff all day and sleep at night.. It's the same everyday so u'll just lose track of time till bookout day! Haha..

Today's absolutely the worst, I'm too tired to write it here now so I guess u'll have to ask me when u see me.. Today's like the most stressful day of my life.. Never been that stress before!

No point leaving what I wrote here, when you removed yours.
I still love u jul.

2007-06-14T23:40:00.000+08:00

Hello people!

Since my 21th birthday is coming soon and I won't be posting for a while, I'll put up a wishlist so that you guys can start preparing to save money to buy my presents! Ahahaha.. Yeah! So here's the list in order of priority! =D

1) Liverpool home jersey
2) Funky T-shirts!
3) PSP games - GTA, Dynasty Warrior, Dynasty Tactics, Final Fantasy Tactics, Final Fantasy, Ace Combat! (You guys can buy me the games first! Then I'll buy the PSP, unless some kind soul wanna buy the PSP for me too!)

Actually that's about all.. For now! So people start saving! (:

A few points I want to make before I go.
This is not a joke post, I'm serious!
I'm not an egoist! Not much anyway. I'm just being practical.
And I'll miss everyone when I go army. (:

2007-06-14T12:32:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone.

Imeem's being a bitch! Only 30 seconds preview. Bah!
Gonna remove the song.

And I'm going in army this sat, so this will probably be the last post in a while.
I'll be going at 9.30am at Pasir Ris bus interchange.
How sad. Haha

2007-05-29T22:37:00.000+08:00

How to Dissuade Yourself from Becoming a Blogger

What a buzz all the bloggers are making these days! It seems like just about everybody is pouring their musings into a text box. Are you feeling tempted to start a blog of your own? Here are some ways to bypass the trend.

Steps

1. Find five completely random blogs, and read them daily for a month. After thirty days, you will absolutely dread your self-imposed requirement to read all that dreck. Any blog you create will most likely be on par with what you've been reading. Don't put anyone through that.

2. Consider that your voice, even if it is truly a good one, is a tiny peep against the massive wave of tripe out there. The odds of anyone you don't already know finding your blog are low.

3. Write on a regular basis in a text editor instead. If that doesn't satisfy your urge, and you feel that you must post your blog online, then you might just be craving attention and validation--which you'll never truly find in a blog. If you give up on your Wordpad journal after about three days, you'll do the same with a blog that just takes up server space.

4. Ask yourself if you really have the time to commit to a blog. What about that treehouse you wanted to build? Or the book you wanted to write? Or the car you wanted to fix up? Or the restaurant you wanted to take your significant other to? Or the new career you wanted to pursue? Instead of writing about pretty much nothing, or whining about all the things you wish you were doing instead, start doing something that'd actually be worth writing about. And if it's really worth writing about, you'll be having too much fun doing it to tear yourself away from it.

Tips

* Rest easy in the knowledge that it's perfectly okay and respectable to not have a blog at all. Not everyone is cut out to write things that are readable by everyone. The last thing you want to do is contribute more dreck to the universe.

* If attention and validation are what you're looking for, know that you will get neither from blogging. As above, very few people will ever know that your blog (or you, by proxy) exists. The remainder of comments posted to your blog will be sappy treacle, which you won't trust as being sincere anyway.

* Consider writing on a wiki instead. Unlike most blogs, wikis like Wikipedia and wikiHow are read by millions of people each month. Several wikiHow authors receive "fan mail" messages every day from appreciative readers. In addition, many authors discover that they enjoy the wiki collaborative writing process more than writing in solitude. This is a great way to obtain the attention and validation you are craving.

* If you plan to use a blog as a way of keeping in touch with a group of people, such as friends, family, or co-workers, then you may want to make sure it's inaccessible to the public (for the public's sake as well as yours). Using a message board instead of a blog can simplify matters and help keep it interactive.

* Try participating as a regular commentator to three to five blogs that you think highly of. This plan has the advantage of writing for the public along with not doing the publishing oneself.

* Try keeping a private journal on LiveJournal (or similar site that offers the private entries setting) instead of writing to the public, or friends. In the private journal, only you logged in as your username is able to view the journal entries.

Warnings

* The information you post on the Internet is likely to linger for years and years to come, as web pages are archived by "snapshot" services like the Wayback Machine. Once it's out there, you can't take it back. An employer running a Google search on your name years down the line might be turned off by your now documented obsession with your cat.

* Keep in mind that, unless you expressly make it otherwise, blogs are extremely public. This is not your secret diary that you write your innermost thoughts in because only you have the key and you wear it around your neck 24/7. If you have stuff that you don't want your mom, your best friend, your significant other, your secret crush, or your aforementioned cat to know, don't go blabbing it to complete strangers on the internet. You cannot assume that the people you don't want to see what you're saying won't somehow stumble across your blog and know all your dirty little secrets. If you must record these thoughts for posterity, do so offline.

* You may never know if you enjoy blogging unless you try it.

Found this at http://www.wikihow.com. Dunno if I should laugh or what. Haha.